December, You Speedy Thing

So 2010 is drawing to a close.  Yes, it's only the 2nd week of December, but everything work and life related that has yet to happen that I KNOW is coming makes it seem like the month is already over.  I suppose I should try to live in the moment or whathaveyou.  It also makes me think I should take a look back at 2010.  When I was a consistent journal-er (say freshman year of high school through junior year of college) I used to do end of the year recaps.  I'd bullet point (I've said it before, I'll say it again, I'm a list-lover) the highs and lows and main points of the year.  It was interesting to do a list rather than an emotional "how far have I come, how have I changed?" sort of deal.  With my consistent inability to think well of myself and anything I do, looking in sort of grand LIFE-HUMANITY-PROGRESS terms I'd say, "well, I haven't done ANYTHING, I've wasted my year, my life."  If I literally list out things that have happened ("moved to new apartment" or "knit my first sweater") I'd realize that a lot more happened in my life than I'm willing to admit to myself and even if it wasn't all doctorates and orphan-rescues, it's still my life and still worthwhile.  One the negative side (at least in terms of feelings) it also shows me all the things I HAVEN'T done.  Maybe I'll recap this year.  It's fun to try and recall all the wacky happenings and doings, it makes life seem more like it happened and its effects stay with you rather than you just breezing through and forgetting all the stuff that's "over and done". But I don't know how willing I am to look at what I'm NOT doing...