Thinky Thoughts

Hooray! I did it! I officially gave my notice to my boss and that means that I am officially leaving in July and that means that I am officially moving to Seattle in August!

I am incredibly excited and I am incredibly scared. Interesting how those two coexist. I'm PSYCHED to live with Liz, get cold-weather clothes, KNIT myself cold-weather clothes, set up house, get to know the city, find a new church and a new choir, make new friends (but keep the old, one is silver and the other gold, a circle's round, it never ends, that's how long I want to be your friend). I am NOT excited to look for a new job. Find one, yes, and hopefully a good one. But LOOK for one? I've never really had to LOOK for a real job. Summer retail employment, sure. And this job was just handed to me, really. So now I have to be a grown up and find one myself. Oy.

It's also interesting that I am going to be living outside of California. I've been here my whole life, how is that possible? And how is it possible that I am going to leave Westmont? Time went by in such a strange way, alternating between dragging and rushing and now that it's all past it seems like a week ago that I came to summer orientation with Mom and Corrie and cried when they had to leave. Ages ago that I moved in and randomly met Liz in line at lunch time--little did I know I'd found one of my best friends in the world. Ages ago that I went to Italy (and Spain, and Sweden!). Ages ago that I lived in Clark, Armington, VK, Salinas house, moved to Carp....AAAAAAAAH! MY BRAIN IS EXPLODING!!!!

I have been here for six years. That's a quarter of my life!

6+6+6+6=24

24/6=1/4

I did the math, it's a quarter of my life!!! (You didn't think I could do math, but I can!) How ridiculous is that? At Westmont I've earned a degree, made friends, discovered a ridiculous love of singing, learned to start liking myself inside and out, learned that it's possible that people actually like me, started dating, had my heart broken and got over it, found out that I can actually be useful and responsible, that I can run an office, that I can take care of myself and earn a living, I started exercising, found a church I love, so many amazing things...how can I possibly have a life anywhere else? But I will and I cannot wait!!!!!